Her name is Crystal. She was living a pretty normal life, going to high school, have a lot of friends, and no boyfriend just yet. Love was something that she didn't believe in. I know that pride was everything for her because she was stubborn, selfish, always want to win, and self-centered. Someone once asked her, “What is love?” She wasn’t sure with her answer until she finally said, “Love is just a fantasy. It isn’t real.” He was
wondering why she said that. Well, it simply because she was never in love. She didn’t
know how to love or how to express love; she had no idea if the feeling
itself even exist. She didn’t care about it until she put herself in a hole where she couldn't get out. Simply because she wanted to know how it feels. Does it feel like
an attachment or care about someone so much, it hurts? Crystal was playing with fire
by letting herself falling, and she didn’t even realize it because she wasn’t
thinking clearly. Curiosity, that’s what it’s called. She promised herself not to
get hurt, but hey, there are some things you can’t control in this world. Even her own cousin told her, you’re going to get yourself in trouble, and she just
laughed because she thinks it’s stupid to get hurt by a guy. Her mind was
telling her to take control, and don’t fall too hard or too fast. However, she
wanted to fall this time, not because she wanted to get hurt, but because she was
dying to know what it’s like to love or to care about an individual that’s not
even her blood. As the time past by, she was worried if it actually wasn’t love; she
confused love with infatuation and attachment. Little did she know, she grew a
feeling; a feeling that wasn’t supposed to be there. She wanted to deny it and
close herself to it, but it wouldn’t let her, so she just went with it, and she said that it felt
amazing. It felt like heaven, like there was this bubble around them that wouldn’t
let anything or anyone get in between them. That’s when she knew that love does exist; she felt it.
One day, she told me about it, about her experiences, about her love, "He was my first everything, my first love, first kiss, the first one that I let into my life so deep, and I didn't even know that it is possible to care about someone that much. I was happy, so happy that I couldn't wait to get out of school and just hang out with him at a coffee shop or a restaurant; no matter where I was, I felt safe when I was with him. Want to know how much he affects me? I couldn't even wait a second to tell him every single thing that I did that day because I shared every part of me with him. He was my other half who helped me, carried me, and took some of the pain away from me. No matter how many times we argued or how many times he hurt me, I know it sounds stupid, but I will always love him. That's when I knew that I fall... I fall hard and I don't even know if I can get out." There are roller coasters in every relationship. Arguing as a couple is normal because
problems are unavoidable. Unfortunately, after a while, things change; everything fades
away with no marks. Problems cannot be fixed, and cursed words were out in
every single sentence because they were trying to hurt one another. In the end, they are back to where they first stand; strangers. I can see it in her eyes that she was hurt, and I couldn't believe what had happened to them after years they spent together. However, I believe that there is someone better out there who's waiting for her to love again. After a month or so, she said that she feels a little better though the feeling for him still won't go away. When you loved or I should say love a person so much, I don't think that you can ever stop unless what you had wasn't really love. Loving someone is like gambling, if s/he is your fate then you win. However, if s/he isn't your fate, you lose, and when you lose, it will hurt so much that you can feel your heart aching. Is it worth the try? Yes because in the process of loving someone, you will feel joy, happiness, and peace, also the reassurance that you are one step closer to "the one."
These
tragedies are everywhere, couples break up and make up, and then officially
over. Some survive until marriage, some don’t, and some get a divorce, and some
live happily ever after. However, it’s always better to know everything about
your significant other sooner than later like how he is when he’s around his
family or how he talks to you when he’s down or how he handles his problems or
how he treats you after a while. You have to know those things before you step
into a more serious relationship. That’s why I suggest to take everything slow
until you both are ready. Every guy is different in their own ways, don't just based his personality on your history with other guys.
A lot of my friends have been through heart breaks, including myself. I just want to share my thoughts and show a bigger picture of everything because some girls can't move on from their ex-es so easily. Well, If you are in a position where you have been in a
relationship for a long time and you both fight, but still want to make everything
work, try it. There is nothing wrong with that, just remember, it takes TWO
people to be in a relationship. Both sides have to try in order to make it
work. Here is another reminder, "If a guy wants you, nothing can keep him away.
If
he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay.” When you already tried
to the point where you begged him to be with you, and he still said no, it is a
sign that you need to stop. Stop embarrassing yourself and torturing yourself
because it isn’t worth it. He doesn’t love you anymore or maybe he still loves you, no matter what he feels for you, sometimes it just does not work out, and you should move on and let go. Believe that if it is meant to be, it will be. You have to respect yourself, and sometimes being selfish is
the only option. Just don’t give up on love because there are still good
guys out there who is dying to meet you, get to know you, and treat you better
than any of your ex-es. You have to look forward to see the good things in
life, don’t ever look back because backward is never a good sign.
From now on, one thing that I look for in a guy is respect.
Respect for women, for his family, and especially for himself. Doesn’t matter how
rich he is, if he treats you like trash, it isn't worth it. Do
not ever let a guy define who you are, you aren’t all of those things he named
you, you are so much more worthy. It’s him who doesn’t know your value. You
have to respect yourself to let go. If he is the right guy, he will come around and show you that he really loves you. Before that, you just have to trust me that time heals everything, I mean
Everything. Don't worry, what goes around, comes around. Just focus on yourself, your
dreams, what you want in life, work on your career, hang out with your best friends, and then you will feel
better before you even know it because that’s how it works. We have to meet a
couple of frogs before we find our prince. Depending on ourselves is the only option because depending on other people only lead us to
disappointments, be an independent woman!
P.S. Don’t settle for anything less than you deserve, love.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.. I hope you are having an amazing day with your loved ones.
I love you all
XOXO,
